Amazement

There are at least two things I am amazed at; my continuing sin, and God's continuing grace. I was reflecting on this tonight, that my affections for Christ are so weak at times. I find myself drifting through the day giving short thoughts to my Saviour but nothing that affects my heart very much. Not only are my sins of commission bad enough, whether it is gossiping, anger, or just judgment in my heart, but to think through how self-centered I am or how unaffected I am at times by the gospel is really amazing. It really is!

If a cop were following me on the road I probably wouldn't even go two mph over the speed limit, much least 10. Yet I actively sin in the face of the One who sees my every move. Also, if a human I knew were to give their life for me, I think I would never lack love for them and the mention of them would truly affect me. Why am I then at times so unaffected by Christ and His work?

My second amazement though overwhelms my first, namely that Christ continues to love and perserve me until the end! While I was still a sinner Christ died for me (Rom 5:8), which is beyond me, but for Christ to continue to pursue me even after I have known Him and His goodness yet reject Him is perhaps more amazing. I'm reminded of what Paul told the Galatians in 4:9, "But now that you have come to know God, or rather to be known by God, how can you turn back to the weak and worthless elementary principles of the world, whose slaves you want to be once more?" Amazing, sounds like me. Yet again, even more amazing..."For I am sure that neither life nor death...nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord" (Rom 8:38-39). God, the One in charge, whom I owe my life to, is the One who continues to pursue me because I am so prone to wonder. I stand on the promise that I was drawn by the Father and that Christ will raise me up in the last day (Jn 6:44). I worship my Creator even now for this objective truth!!